Project Pan Update

Thursday, 1 January 2015

Back at the beginning of November I decided to undergo a Project Pan in order to curb a bit of my beauty purchasing in the latter half of the year. It's been over a month of my spending ban and I thought it would be a good time to give an update.

If you want to catch up on my intentions, you can view my original Project Pan post here.

For over a month I stuck to my ban of only purchasing products that were replacements for used up ones. I kept track of everything coming in and out and it was all on track. I'll be honest, it took me until December 18th to buy a beauty product that wasn't a replacement for a used up product. Choosing to undergo a buying ban during the holiday set period was probably a bad idea and eventually the call of the Dior limited edition holiday collection overcame me.

Since then, I have officially abandoned the Project Pan. I've gone on plenty of spending bans since I started buying beauty products but this one had a completely different effect on me. Forcing myself to not buy beauty products when I so badly wanted to made me completely re-evaluate the way I approach my spending. As a young uni student who still lives at home, I have quite a bit of disposable income which I can spend on whatever I like (i.e. mostly food, books, and makeup).

After putting so much energy into limiting the amount of makeup and beauty products I buy, I decided to start examining why I felt I had to. Was it embarrassment? Or a sense that I was wasting money? For me, it seems like I'm still struggling to let myself fully enjoy my enthusiasm for makeup out of a belief that it's shallow or beneath my other pursuits. I think everyone in the beauty community has experienced some derision from people who just don't understand our interest. Quite frankly, I'm tired of feeling this way, of feeling guilty when I buy makeup because I know I'm 'over budget' as though it was a hard and fast rule instead of an arbitrary measurement that I imposed upon myself.

I have never been an excessive spender so this is in no way a license for me to buy far, far too much stuff that I'll never use up. I've just decided, that for my life, spending bans, Project Pans, and keeping meticulous track of my beauty spending just isn't working and ultimately, it doesn't make me happy. Heading into the new year, investing energy into a system that doesn't make me happy seems far too undesirable.

Thank you for reading my rant! I'm sharing my experience in the hope that my personal journey will resonate or help someone in a similar place. Please let me know what your experience has been and we can share tips for responsible handling of our hobbies.

xx Julia

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